Defeated

This is my fourth long distance race, I and feel more defeated today than when I took my first steps to run nearly 3 years ago. Why isn’t running what it once was for me? It was a time for me to sort out my thoughts, hang out with God, focus on me, and work hard to be healthy. Now, I have zero motivation. I go to the gym and see the skinny girl next to me running at 8.5 and feel instant defeat. Since this is my fourth race shouldn’t be a cake walk? Shouldn’t I be in shape and prepared? Shouldn’t I know better than to compare myself to the skinny girl next to me on the treadmill? What is my problem?

I’m going to work on making running what it was to me. I’m going to go back to the basics. Praying before I start, praying while I’m running. Repeating “it’s only one foot in front of the other.”